i am just

feeling bad lately. i hate time passing by so fast. too tired to do anything during weekends. why am i so weak?! grrr... anyhow last week i got my TERA pressies. hand-written note and tattoo from Alexis made me happiest. sarcasm is so sweet! mildly exciting. boyfriend spoiling me by buying me clothes. makes me frustrated (and happy.) life is all kinds of frustrating overall, lately. it makes me so angry that we're apart. and that i can imagine your bodyheat and arms around me while i lay in bed. and that my hair smelled so nice until i washed it earlier today. and that cereal gets stuck in my teeth. and that people don't value how others feel. and that people treat eachother like shit.