there's no tomorrow until you come back

it feels weird with Tablo being in YG. i didn't think at first it would have a great impact on his stage presence, but it feels like they decided to rely more on props during the performances of "Bad" and Tablo acting according to expectations. if that makes sense. it doesn't feel real and raw like it used to with Epik High. i'm disappointed. amazing performances, of course. but it lacks a bit of Tablo. we came to love him for his bluntness, his rawness and the fact that he lets us into his own thoughts and feelings. he's more real than anyone else in the Korean entertainment industry, mainly because he writes and composes his own songs, based on his experiences and emotions. this staged "drama" doesn't feel true to how we know him.







eyecandy and earcandy. best combination ever?

i've been too low lately. PMS has been getting to me the past days. weird dreams. i installed Windows 7 yesterday! quite exciting, i like it a lot. but sadly my PC is still as hopeless. there's something corrupt with some techything which makes my PC crash while running TERA, which is rather annoying. i've also been having issues with my Razer Naga drivers, so i can't use it properly. i haven't been able to fix it so it's in a box right now. i can't play MMOs without my Naga since i'm a noob. frustrating since i just recently payed for a month of Aion. ordered the last clothing items for winter. ended up with hair elastics instead of a bracelet from H&M. i don't know if i care enough to return it, i wanted to cancel the order anyway so.

other than the past days which have been chaotic, life is been nice. i need to read a few pages of Sophie's World for our philosophy class for tomorrow, i also have only a few pages left of Eating Animals. i don't miss meat at all. i ate a few slices of ham a while back. i used to be addicted to that stuff, but now i've lost the taste for it. fall break next week. i don't look forward to it. getting out of routines. i've been away from school too much as it is. also, i bought Tablo's new album on iTunes. i forgot to backup my iTunes music folder when installing Windows 7, of course. and re-download of previous purchases isn't available in the Swedish iTunes store. i have the files on my phone, so it's not a big deal regarding the files themselves. but it's absolutely shit that they tell you that you can re-download it, you buy it, and then you don't get what you pay for. you look shit up, find the fineprint and go. oh. should count as false advertising, seriously.

on a more positive note, today we went to Aquaria with the class. it was fun. it was a small place which was disappointing, but the animals were fascinating. took a few pictures on my cellphone that i might post later. but while the guide was feeding the fish, i couldn't stop wondering how the fish felt being there. i mean, it was a small place. i'm sure it was quite similar to their natural environment, but it just seemed too small to me. and something i read somewhere kept bugging me, about aquarium and zoo animals not being fed like usual to make them more excited when the guide comes to feed them and etc. i don't know if that's true or anything, but it was just in the back of my head all the time. but they seemed well-kept and the staff semed great, so i'm sure they're fine.



V838 Monocerotis

norwegian wood

i never posted these screnshots i think. anyhow, going through stuff i want to backup before formatting my PC i found these and wanted to post them. so now i'm posting them.



daniel armand lee

sometimes i wonder if he realizes what kind of deep love people feel for him.


make me feel very content with life. i love how we have philosophy as last class before the weekend, chewing thoughts on the way home. i have all these productive plans for this weekend, but knowing me i'll end up doing nothing anyway. i'm going to read, though! we finally got our copies of Sophie's World. i read it back when i was 12 or so, so i really look forward to reading it again as a different person with better capability to comprehend what it's about, lol. i feel quite lucky that i got this class instead of art, that i chose on my application. now, let us enjoy the weekend and RELAX.


Occupy Stockholm

ströbilder, har ingen lust att redigera osv. länge leve skitkontrast! var en rolig dag förövrigt, underbart att se alla olika människor som kom och lyssnade, stöttade och talade. gamla, unga, svenska, icke-svenska, människor och icke-människor.



I need an airbag before I crash into the colossal sadness that is coming my way.

Do people lose themselves because they don’t have a home or a path to walk down? Or is it because even though they have many places to go, there is not one person waiting for them there?

Daniel Armand Lee is one of the most amazing beings existing on this planet. i can not ever get enough of his ingeniousity. is that a word? lol



this morning

this is pretty much outside my window right now. woke up, saw a bright star (Sirius), thought it was a satellite or something but then i went to look out the window properly and saw Orion's belt. my sky map application wouldn't work properly so i hit up Stellarium and realized i was right. yay! Sirius, Rigel, Betelgeuse, Procyon, Aldebaran and Jupiter. it's getting brighter and brighter. can only see Sirius, Rigel and Jupiter. ahhh i want to spend beginning of my morning like this every day, lol. and i shall! when weather and season allows. yay!


thought this was Ganymede at first. became so excited realizing it's Mercury. it looks like such a cold and dark place, like our Moon. hard to imagine the mean temperature on the surface is 442.5 Kelvin, ~170ºC. about twice as hot as our Moon. i am craving astronomy books right now.


nä fy

vad helger är värdelösa. har läst och forumat och lyssnat på musik och sett på my little pony hela dagen ungefär. rastlös. helger gör mig emo. har glömt hur man mår bra och har kul när man inte har några måsten att göra. det suger som fan.


lina magic

i'm bored as fuck and found this on tumblr while procrastinating so let's procrastinate some more and then fold laundry and then watch terra nova.

1. who was the last person you held hands with? Tolga!
2. are you loud, outgoing, or shy? neither, i'm an introvert, but that does not necessarily mean i am shy. because i am not.
3. who are you looking forward to seeing? Tolga. in winter. for christmas. in December. OH MY GOD I CAN NOT WAIT. :3
4. are you easy to get along with? i sure am, since i tend to avoid conflicts unless it's a person i am very comfortable with and know no matter how much we argue we will still be close. i have none of those. (except for Tolga, of course)
5. have you ever given up on someone, but then gone back to him or her? no, i never gave up that time.
6. if you were drunk, would the person you like take care of you? i hope so. but the other way around is more likely.
7. do you think you'll be in a relationship two months from now? i know i will!
8. who from the opposite gender is on your mind? Tolga. :3
9. does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? only if the person i am talking to is making me uncomfortable.
10. who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? what classifies as a deep conversation? beloved, i suppose!
11. what does your most recent text say? commercial from my phone carrier. i don't get many texts.
12. how do you feel about abortion? i feel everyone should have choices.
13. do you like big crowds of people? they tend to be noisy, so no, loud people tend to get on my nerves.
14. do you believe in luck and miracles? i do, but not in any religious or supersticious way.
15. what good thing happened this summer? going to Gotland was great. spending time with Tolga was greater.
16. would you kiss the last person you kissed again? a million times over.
17. do you think there is life on other planets? planets aren't the only objects in the universe able to carry life, you know. but yes, i can't imagine there not being life on other objects in space.
18. do you still talk to your first crush? no, and that's not something that i miss.
19. do you like bubble baths? i do, but they're too time consuming. it's funny because i used to despise taking showers, but after showering with Tolga for a week, taking a bath is kind of not on the map at all. i prefer spending my time on other things.
20. do you like your neighbours? i certainly have no reason to dislike them, that i know of. but i don't know them well enough to like them.
21. what are your bad habits? picking scabs. i just can't stop.
22. where would you like to travel? all over the world, but more specifically, i would really like to travel to Iceland, Northern Norway, Greenland, Scotland. and the Netherlands, to visit Tolga.
23. do you have trust issues? i suppose i do have those deep-kind of trust issues..
24. favourite part of your daily routine? walking from the subway to school, i guess. it's a nice walk in the mornings.
25. what body part are you most uncomfortable with? wouldn't that be obvious? i'm not 100% comfortable with my tummy, but i am most of the time.
26. what do you do when you wake up? most probably help sunny or dollar down from my bed, or check my phone.
27. do you wish your skin was lighter or darker? never thought of it! i think the shade of my skin is fine, only wish it was cleaner and healthier.
28. who are you most comfortable around? Tolga.
29. have any of your ex's told you they regret breaking up? i suppose not.. i don't have many exes.
30. do you ever want to get married? i don't find it that important, but why not? i've never dreamt of princess weddings and such, but i would love if it was a small ceremony only with the closest people somewhere in nature.
31. is your hair long enough for a pony tail? yuppers. planning on getting it cut, though.
32. which celebrities would you like having a threesome with? i can't think of anyone but Juno Temple. Tolga better approve.
33. spell your name with your chin. weserjuikm<az
34. do you play sports? noppers.
35. would you rather live without tv or music? tv, i never watch tv.
36. have you ever liked someone and never told them? of course, i crushed on many people during my early teens.
37. what do you say during awkward silences? either nothing, or something that makes it all the more awkward. most of the time i try to keep myself from laughing, i really enjoy awkward moments.
38. do you think age matters in relationships? it doesn't matter much to me, but i've not given it much thought.
39. what are your favourite stores to shop in? H&M and Asos, Indiska, Urban Outfitters, Monki.. however i don't own a single piece from the last two. i like cheap.
40. what do you want to do after high school? live with Tolga, study a lot of different courses at the university and then get a degree in astronomy or environment or something along those lines.. i want to learn Icelandic and learn more Korean and some Dutch.
41. do you believe everyone deserve a second chance? completely depends on the situation, but many times, i would say no. but then i would anyway.
42. if you're being extremely quiet, what does it mean? it doesn't mean anything specific, that's simply the way i am most of the time. you should worry if i become very talkative.
43. do you smile at strangers? i do, at least once a day. i want to do it more.
44. trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean? both are terrifying. outer space.
45. do you want a roommate? yes. Tolga!
46. what are you paranoid about? whenever i take photographs i get scared i will drop the camera or phone, espescially if i am shooting over water. i have no wrist strap on my camera. when the subway train goes extra fast and breaks extra hard i always think we're about to crash.
47. what was the meanest thing someone ever said to you? forgotten by now, i can't think of anything.
48. the nicest thing? oh, every word coming out of Tolga's mouth.
49. have you done something recently that you hope noone finds out about? nope, can't think of anything.
50. what language do you want to learn? many! Icelandic, Korean, Dutch, Finnish, Latin, Welsh, Scottish Gaelic..


Eating Animals

"We have such resistance to being hypocrites,
that we would prefer to be fully ignorant and fully forgetful, all the time."
Jonathan Safran Foer