astronomy/geology documentaries. mainly astronomy. i've realized i used to be so shielded from the world, the universe rarely ever passed my mind. and then i exploded. wow i thought i had something to say but i think "i exploded" sums it up pretty good. but hey, these days at least i get a lot of joy discovering the world which  comes to good use while trying to keep my head above the surface.

today i blew bubbles until i became dizzy and sticky. i get so frustrated because even though learning through documentaries and emulators like stellarium and universe sandbox is fun, it's not stimulating enough. i am so craving for my own telescope. and i'm doubting the geology route i was considering. but i can't do astronomy, i have no interest in maths.

i want to watch the fountain again. blown mind, broken heart, and etc. jackman was so fucking good.

the fountain

wonders of the universe



october 16



Orion nebula

studying images of nebulae is so much fun. my favorites right now are Orion and Lagoon.


i'm fine living without you

dayuuuummmmmm. am i the only one thinking this MV is seriosly violent? rather disturbing. and badass. are they releasing a non-animated MV? they should. i'm craving choreography. let's go shower and then go through 1298473297423 BBC The Wonders of the Universe screenshots. existence is my newest interest and biggest fascination. i would say i'm more interested in astronomy rather than geology right now, but i'm sort of split. and it KILLS me not to know how the Big Bang was triggered. gdi. inserts list of "i wonder..."s. sneezes. SHOWER. Harry Potter tomorrow. honestly not very excited. who cares about fiction when we're magic ourselves. we were created by stars. isn't that fucking amazing? and ofc these past days of space-phase hasn't made me any more certain of what to study in the future. i'm thinking PhD in astronomy and master's in geology.... who the fuck knows. i have an incredible motivation to learn things. DON'T GO ANYWHERE.