sigh


i am losing it.

keep going

don't think about it too much..

HE IS ONE MONTH YOUNGER THAN ME WHAT DO I DO WITH MY LIFE FUCK

this is my home, leave me alone.

these people are why i'm surviving rn

art is life and life is sports

survey gogogogogo

• 1. Did you wake up cranky?
• I guess a bit yea
• 2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now?
• HAHAHAHAAHA YES FUCK i think i have a thing for younger guys kill me now thank you this is bangtan's fault
• 3. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys?
• anyone?!?!?!??!?! 
• 4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?
• yes
• 5. Can you commit to one person?
• yes
• 6. How do you look right now?
• like i haven't showered for four days 
• 7. What exactly are you wearing right now?
• chewed sweatpants old tshirt
• 8. How often do you listen to music?
• oooooooften but not often enough
• 9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?
• both equally tbh i change out of jeans into sweats as soon as i get home
• 10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2014?
• nah
• 11. Are you a social or an antisocial person?
• mostly antisocial but depending on the situation i can be really social
• 12. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?
• "ok"
• 13. Are you good at hiding your feelings?
• i dont think so eh idk
• 14. Can you drive a stick shift?
• i dont drive no
• 15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?
• if i dont hear about it no
• 16. Are you going out of town soon?
• noooooo
• 17. When was the last time you cried?
• today hahahahahaha
• 18. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?
• yes actually
• 19. If you could change your eye color, would you?
• yes please
• 20. Name something you have to do tomorrow?
• labreport math chem first physics chapter shower..
• 21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having.
• i didnt study enough sigh
• 22. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex?
• yes
• 23. Are you nice to everyone?
• idk????? i want to think i am but maybe i dont come off as it idk
• 24. What are you sitting on right now?
• my bed <3
• 25. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?
• i know i can this is dumb
• 26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?
• story of my life
• 27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?
• lol.. no one
• 28. Do you get a lot of colds?
• hum usually yeah but this semester i've steared clear of them most of the time?
• 29. Have your pants ever fallen down in public?
• not that i can remember
• 30. Does anyone hate you?
• idk
• 31. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
• nooo
• 32. Do you like watching scary movies?
• yes
• 33. Are you a jealous person?
• occasionally
• 34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?
• i guess my first because i cant remember it anyway hahahahah
• 35. Did you have a dream last night?
• YES OH MY GOD I DREAMT OF NAMJOON AND IT WAS AMAZING AND THEN I WOKE UP sigh
• 36. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to?
• no
• 37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
• no
• 38. Do you think someone has feelings for you?
• no well yeah i know someone does but apart from them no
• 39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
• yeah but dont -_-
• 40. Did you have a good day yesterday?
• hum somewhat
• 41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship?
• 2 months ago was right around the time we broke up so.. not sure
• 42. Is your life anything like it was two years ago?
• well similar because school but the workload is completely different
• 43. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now?
• well i for one would be freaking out and he would probably be a bit annoyed
• 44. What’s the best part about school?
• learning things
• 45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?
• yes
• 46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school?
• friends? school? lol
• 47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head?
• yeah vixx' showcase but other than that no
• 48. Were you single over the last summer?
• no
• 49. What are you supposed to be doing right now?
• sleeping or studying hahahaha
• 50. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive?
• actually yes 

VIXX happened yesterday. It was pretty perfect and I have no words and I can barely remember anything of subtance. I cried the entire subway ride home and there was a nice scary looking guy keeping his eyes on me. (Awkward.)
I'm so behind on studying for exams and my lab report will not be in by deadline.
Losing my grip.
근데........괜찮을것같아. 못하면괜찮아...ㅠ