ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ OUR BABIES FINALLY WON
i want to hug luna


TERA Dark Awakening

that weaponsmithing Aman looks like the devil. beast. TERA has such a bright future. really excited about the future updates. maybe not the rift-rip off, but i can live with those. as long as they're not as bad as in Rift. lol. and ofc dyes and glowing makes me squeal, can't deny. and server vs server and aerial cities (does this mean we get flying mounts?) and and and. omg so excited. totally gonne be worth the wait. will be drooling over upcoming patch notes. better start stocking up on tissues.



Amber looks fab in blonde. hotter than ever. wanna bet the reason she went to the US and was gone from f(x) for so long was because she got a sex-change surgery? wouldn't surprise me. cause she's smoking more than usual. but as always with f(x) (NU ABO was the only exception) the choreography needs to grow on me. can't wait for their comeback performances. and the release of their first full album. and fancams and fanpics of Krystal and Sulli and Amber and Victoria and Luna.



따라따라 따따따 짜릿짜릿 할거다 궁금투성이에 너 꼼짝 마라 너~
조각조각 따따따 꺼내보고 따따따 맘에 들게 널 다시 조리할거야!


brand new stardom

hey new favorite group. Zico and Kyung stood out for me immediately. Zico is just beast, and Kyung gives off this underground k-hiphop feeling that i'm a big fan of. been waiting for someone to combine skilled rappers with skilled singers (no big bang doesnt count cause they lack in the vocal department imo), and the choreography is great. not the ordinary idol group, even though the flashy styling says otherwise. i don't understand how people can complain about them copying Big Bang. i see no Big Bang in this music video or in this song, maybe Zico's hairstyle looks a bit G-Dragon-ish and the leather jackets that were really trendy in 2008, but that's it. feels to me like the video is more inspired by BEAST with the setup and the choreography's formation. but it feels completely fresh and it's something new in k-pop. do approve.

finast musik och finast pojke och finast sammetshimmel. jag dör. vi behöver inte mer än så här. i sommar vill jag lyssna på finast musik och ligga i gräset och hålla din hand och kolla på molnen och bränna sönder min näsa. vi är komplicerade men det finns bara den svåra vägen.

my favorite part was the tits.

And as I moved on, thought I'd blow my mind
But as it turned out, I was wrong
I met my sorrow, saw her in the eyes
She tried my courage
She tried my courage, but left me stronger

(You better stand up straight and you gotta be strong
You gotta fight for your right and reclaim your own song)



겨울 공기가 차가워 뺨에 닿은 너의 손 끝이 차갑듯
어느새 긴 머리만 흐른 시간을

지난 계절을 말하는 듯 내 마음은 변함없이
잔잔히 흐르는 저 강 같아

내가 슬픈 건 조금 더 넓어지라는 말
내가 아픈 건 조금 더 깊어지라는 말인걸

이 강 물에 나는 너를 띄워 흘려보낸다 너를
잠시 쉬었던 강 끝 언덕엔 너와 난 이제 없다

내가 슬픈 건 조금 더 넓어지라는 말
내가 아픈 건 조금 더 깊어지라는 말인걸





let's put up some.

1. finish school.
2. get a job.
3. get a little cute apartment with lots of plants and big windows and crystals and wind chimes and dream catchers and pretty stuff.
4. die. FOREVER ALONE. with cats chewing on my rotting corpse.

it's frustrating looking up jobs online and seeing the requirements. outgoing/can handle stress/interested in people/service minded/drivers license/AT LEAST highschool graduate/experience/etc.

ohi. introvert, anxious, idgafaboutotherpeopleunlesstheyreSPESHUL, will never get a drivers license because of costs and because i refuse contributing more than i already do for the death of the earth, dropped out of school in 8th grade, worked one summer month and skipped at least a week of that.

and i'm perfectly fine the way i am and will not take a job that will drive me into a wall. my psychological health is the most important to me and i will not risk it for money. probably naive and dumb, but i just don't understand why people live the way they do and why society works like this. makes me sick.

3 episodes of in treatment to go.


hide and seek

drank my red bull. barely played TERA today, annoying when i have to run to the bathroom and pee all the time. woke up to a UTI. thought i had gotten my period when i looked at the toilet paper. 5 days late. don't know if it's because i'm using a new app to keep track of my circles, but i think it's become irregular. hm.

anyway, i wanted to post about this awesome idea for a story that i got. sometimes i get really random ideas from dreams or thoughts for short films or books or songs or paintings or photos. thing is i'm not creative in any way so i don't do anything but write them down and forget about them. when i recall them i can remember them clearly though. even though they're not material i can enjoy them clearly in my head.

im gonna become a fairy
and live in your heart
and file your toenails while you sleep
hope you dont mind :3

want to make a story about a toenail clipping fairy living in the heart of the best person of the world.

i never write anything decent on this thing, well i don't write anything decent on any sites i'm a member of. but twitter, this blog, forums etc, they're all an outlet. boyfriend doesn't approve of me spilling my life out on the inets, but it's a comfortable outlet for me. i write in my moleskine, but writing by hand is tedious. true pc-generation teen. i just feel comfortable typing my thoughts out as they come, whatever they're about.

i'm in some kind of weird emotional state right now. might be because of the red bull. i'm so happy i want to cry and there are butterflies (or fairies?) in my entire core.

today mom and i went around the building to look for our storage space. apparently it was located in the safety room beneath the building. is it legal to put stuff in there? would think they should be cleared just in case of war or a natural disaster and the space would have to be used by people.. read the big ones in town (housing up to 25k people) are partly used as parking space. liak wat.

my shoulders are stiff and i have ants in my thighs. keep dangling my right foot. when i grow up i will live in the nicest little house or apartment with wind chimes and dream catchers and the best person on earth and i would go nude all day when at home.

it's may soon. i remember the year, i think i was twelve. went with some friends to a bonfire event at some place in my hometown. can't remember the name of it right now. all us kids running around. the crush i had at the time was there, and i was so happy that evening. we stood next to eachother among our friends looking at the fireworks and i fantasized about holding his hand. even though my crush on him faded, i still think of him sometimes. sometimes he shows up in my dreams. i don't know him anymore, but i firmly believe he's a truly good person.

there are people like that, who you don't really know, but leave a big imprint in the person you are and become. i'm grateful of all the people who passed through my life, those who did nothing but hurt me and those who provided the safety i needed. those i knew, and those i didn't. i doubt any of the persons from my past life is reading this, but if you are, TACK! :)

life is nice. don't you think?

babababangkok city i can't stop~
i sort of miss their story-concept, but this concept is quite great too. i love the flowery tights. Lizzy and Raina look awful in blonde hair though.


TERA EU test Day 3:

ah today was shit. was nauseous and ready to throw up all day. woke up with cramps and thought i was about to get my period, but nope... didn't play much TERA. decided to get on the zerker i created and try it out, and was verrry pleasantly surprised at how much fun it was. think it's my favorite class so far. got her to level 9. will get her to 17 tomorrow, can't wait to take a longer break from TERA. i know for sure i'll just casual this game now. it's tiring.


Name: Sica
Class: Berserker
Race: High Elf
Levels: 1-9

TERA EU test Day 2:


TERA's got too many quests.

servers opened at 12 today, finished a photoshop assignment i had forgotten about before i started playing. weirdly enough i didn't feel stressed at all, and finished it 17 minutes after 12. was inspired from the Save Japan projects people have been doing online. took a bath after a couple of hours of playing, read some the wind-up bird chronicle and went grocery shopping. i bought red bull for sunday. not sure why. store had no monster. sad, really. been taking it easy, reached 17 on my Archer. played a few levels on a Sorcerer, Mystic and Slayer. decided to continue on a Priest. really liking the Priest at the moment. sick to death of Island of Dawn though. got to level 7 on the Priest. probably not gonna play much tomorrow. i need a break and got irl stuff to attend to. mom's birthday "party" ie. she bought pizza today, again. and i feel like throwing up all over the place.

let's do screenshots.

Name: Slats
Race: Castanic
Class: Archer
Levels: 12-17

Name: Nyanko
Race: Popori
Class: Priest
Levels: 1-7

and alts.