once back in january there was this person who commented on one of my posts in korean and they wanted to be my friend but they wanted me to email them and they didnt leave and email and i want to be their friend and im so sadㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ애너니머스님다시돌아와!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i have absolutely nothing to say, but hay. this week i've been doggysitting which has been fun and i've been forced to go out a lot which is great. i hadn't realized i missed the forest before now! looking forward to doing it next week also. feels busy! today i finally received the EXO posters that i ordered together with the XOXO albums and they are.... so big. and i have a feeling they will be a pain keeping up on my wall. i also put up the rest of my posters that have been falling off one by one that i eventually got too lazy to put back up again... but here we go. lots of fangirling, otherwise life is uneventful. not long until tolga is coming. we're getting almost a week alone before mom comes home from gotland so that will be nice. hummmmmm. i need to read more books. life is really just exo, boyfriend and dog lately. it is.................. dull. NO. that is the wrong word. it is... repetitive. i guess. well honestly i have no issues with it, but i mean shouldn't i be doing math and reading books? what if i lose my smarts before school starts!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i don't even know. here's a gif i stole off tumblr.
i sometimes really miss my depression. there was one winter where i would watch tv until early morning, slept in my armchair, drank hot chocolate and strawberry tea, read I have the right to destroy myself and Pieces of you, watched Makoto Shinkai movies, listened and slept to Fanny Fink's River and this one amazing song by Tenmon on the 5 centimeters per second soundtrack, dreamt of glitter and sparkles and hot air balloons floating through winter clouds.. it was easy to appreciate the simplest things. it's not easy anymore.
i have serious issues with summer break. i hate not having school to go to. being around people now and then, asocial that i am, i even miss that. this heat had me lose my appetite at first and then it had me bingeing. my bias list is fucking everywhere because fucking exo are perfect. (although kyungsoo is steady first and luhan is steady second for now) it's three weeks until tolga arrives but idk how to manage until then. luhan's hair is fucking orange(ish.. salmon?) and sehun is pink. rn on their schedule there is only music shows and apart from sukira there's nothing to really look forward to right now. i wanted to master all of the khan academy skills before school starts but i'm so bored with it. i could open up the astrophysics book but it's annoying not knowing enough math to finish all the exercises at the end of the first chapter or understand all the equations. i have been studying quite some korean though which has been fun, but using only the ttmik textbooks doesn't make the stuff stick in my brain so it doesn't feel like it's giving me much at the moment. and i'm pretty disappointed because i'm convinced i won't be able to take the korean course along with my science foundation year this fall... sigh. but on a brighter note, i spent some money and got some exo merch. i got the first package yesterday and i'm currently waiting for the albums and posters to arrive as well as a couple of tshirts to be shipped out from korea in a week. i have enough money to spend with tolga but other than that i can't spend anything for the rest of the summer. SM better not release exo's repackage album until september.. oh and also, i'm picking up parapara again. but when i formatted my pc last time i lost my entire parapara collection and it's extremely annoying not having access to all of my favorites. so it's hard getting started again, but i'm making do with youtube videos. if only winter would arrive faster.