i'm sort of done with fandom. at least the part that involves being constantly up to date and watching all of the things, i guess the active parts? and the fandom politics. but i don't know how to move on from it because i'm in no way ready to walk away from twitter. instead i'm considering remaking my account and only following my favourite fansites and accounts. it's not that i'm not interested in bangtan anymore, i just want to spend more time and energy on other things. i felt very balanced with my life for quite a long time after i settled into the fandom, but lately i'm losing that balance. and now it's going to be a bit tricky to find where that new balance is. that's okay.