winter

i sometimes really miss my depression. there was one winter where i would watch tv until early morning, slept in my armchair, drank hot chocolate and strawberry tea, read I have the right to destroy myself and Pieces of you, watched Makoto Shinkai movies, listened and slept to Fanny Fink's River and this one amazing song by Tenmon on the 5 centimeters per second soundtrack, dreamt of glitter and sparkles and hot air balloons floating through winter clouds.. it was easy to appreciate the simplest things. it's not easy anymore.